Ok
I’m up, I’m down. I’m on a rollercoaster.
So I ended my first attempt of opening myself up, via the
form of the written word with blatant plagiarism. It’s true my “have a week”
statement is not my own work it was in fact taken from a very good friend of
mines’ blog whom himself had swiped it from another friends blog so it seemed
ok for me to use it too, so use it I shall.
They changed my pain meds on Tuesday, only so I would be on
more codeine, more drugs, Solpadol 30/500mg, Diclofenac 50mg, Tramadol 50mg,
Amitriptyline 20mg and Oramorph 50 mg, to be taken when needed and
unfortunately need them I do, all of them at night to get some sleep I do
however try to stay off the Tramadol.
Maybe it’s the change in the meds that has urged me to type. Other meds include Omeprazole 40mg (for a hiatus
hernia that I never knew I had (apart from serious “keep me awake” acid)) and
finally Chaga Mushroom (some form of hippie/old Chinese dude remedy for bad
things?).
It’s not a bad mix of drugs, it’s just I never really took
tablets before and now I don’t know if I’ll be able to stop (I will be able to
stop it’s whether or not I want to stop. I have gone from a smoking addiction
of 25years (20 of which have included a little bit of pot) to quite strong pain
relief, with no smoking and the effects are amazingly similar). The thing with
these meds is I now have this cushion around me of numbness and a sense of “blasé-ness”
about my situation and although I am aware of the seriousness of this illness,
to the outside eye I am remarkably calm, I know this because they tell me so.
So how will I cope when the head pain is gone and I have no need for the pills?
Will I be reaching for a spliff? Are they right? Did smoking pot cause this? (I
hope not!)
I never know when I’ll be rambling on here so I may continue
to post 2 or 3 times a day or not for 2 or 3 days?
They say that they are going to give me a, percutaneous endoscopic gastrostomy (PEG) feeding
tube (that’s going to save me from having to eat endless Christmas turkeys but
not from the eggnog), but they are quietly confident that I won’t need a
tracheotomy, which was nice.
Apparently I will
be using O.A.P. toothpaste and mouthwashes 4 different mouthwashes but not all
at the same time, I’m sure just a large tot of rum would do the same but
that’ll be a no no too. Best finish the bottle soon.
This is me Steve Royal. Father of 2.
Have a week
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